I have officially gone into a depressed and emo and grumpy and moody stage.Look what happened to me on thursday.Why God,WHY???
- Exams=English,Geo(oh,joy!) and Math(jolly good fun!)=="
English-I wrote a REAL disturbing story for English paper which was supposed to be like,200 words,I think I wrote about 500-1000 words.Seriously.I wrote about how two sisters,Mandy the older one,takes REALLY good care of Kim,d younger bubbly one..and when Mandy goes to school,Kim follows her mom to the supermarket to get groceries.mom pays at the check-out counter and Kim runs along,asks for permission and skip joyfully to the toys section.Kim suddenly gets kidnapped and I wrote about how Mandy ran home from school crying her eyeballs out and running over the whole neighbourhood screaming,KIM!KIMMY! 'till I'll bet her whole throat got swollen and she ran out of saliva(that's why she stopped.but i din write that.Lol!) And the next day,they had a call from the police dept. saying they found Kim's body in a black plastic bag,which was cut into 3 pieces(not gory enuf??) and dumped in a river.Then,Mandy got really depressed(like me,now) and her mom got like(almost mentally retarded) and Mandy distanced herself from her friends-she used to be 'miss popular yet oh-so-sweet-lol..and everyday she'd come home and sit in Kim's room and stare at the white-sheet-covered room and one day a gust of wind with Kim's scent blew in and she heard Kim's voice telling her she's alright and da..da..da..and I concluded the WHOLE essay with-"I'm happy with whatever's best for Kim.." awww....and Mdm Siva has to read the WHOLE essay cos she's marking it.HA! and her expression would be PRICELESS..priceless i tell you(if she's disturbed or touched-which i hope she would for entirely my entertainment) and Clare bear did the same topic and her was also Gory- let me shorten it in one sentence.a girl tried to get a teddy bear her dad gave it to her which her real pissed mom put on the top shelf n she jumped n she jumped n t whole cupboard fell on her and *SQUISH!* she died.FLAT.ewwww!!!
Geo-wasn't any better 'cos I was distracted by the shouts and screams and cheering of the ex-form 5s for their SPM result.And I was kinda distracted 'cos I was hoping there'd be extra time to see him.and there was! :)...Geo isn't entirely my bestsubject nor is it my favourite.so I did it with a happy heart..no! NO! no! you doof,not for geo!! for him! i was practically jumping out of my chair to see him..and the form 3 prefects tempted me..
Math-Don't even wanna talk about it.If Chui Lynn says it's hard..IT'S HARD!
THEN CAME LUNCH.. I SAW HIM! I REALLY DID! OOH LALA! HE LOOKED SO HOTT! YAY! IT'S LIKE THE LAST TIME I SAW HIM..SO A COCKTAIL MIX,YA KNOW? HAPPINESS,OVEREXCITED,OBSESSION,SORROW AND REGRETS -I DIDN'T PAY ATTENTION TO HIM WHEN HE WAS STILL HERE..SO..sob sob..
BUT I SAW HIM!!!!! <3...hearts,bro.
And then,when my mom picked me up in the car,my sister was like,"Bad news,jie.."and went all like,"Can I tell her the bad news,ma? Can I tell already?"..And I was like all panickky and then she opened her mouth and said these words which until now,still causes me difficulty in believing and accepting..She said....
"Jie,Janice is dead"..
I was like..WHAATT??!! whaddayamean she's DEAD? don't play play.How?!
"She and Lup Mun are dead.Car crash."
and then,a huge wave overwhelmed me.What a way to spoil my mood,not to mention my syched-ness cos I saw him today..And then I started crying..and so did I cry again when I slept that night.I'm still having a nightmare and can't accept tht she's gone even though it's been one day.I keep telling myself,"Janice is dead."and my mind kept replaying the scene when Elise told me.And I still can't accept,What a stubborn mule I am! But would you?,if YOUR cousin died and you're quite close to her or you closer relative? I mean who would you feel when the issue comes out in the papers and you look at her picture and you tink of her childhood days and all her suffering and loneliness..and sympthy just overwhelms you and you can still remember her voice,how she laughed and how she smiled and how she talked?
-heartbroken-
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